As my fiancé held me, the Pastor then grabbed my hand, said a prayer and asked, "Have you sought out help?" All I could think, that is why I am here! I needed reassurance; I needed a place to run! Hard to speak, gasping for air and a burning throat holding my tears I simply replied, No. Thinking to myself, I could not ask my parents, my grandmother was not option and government services were my last resort.
Why? He asked. "It is hard. I feel guilty; a burden," I replied. The Pastor looked into my eyes and held me close, "That is your pride in the way. Let go of your pride and ask for help. You shall receive." I was mind boggled. I have never thought not asking for help was pride! I took a step back, thought for a moment, and realized he was right. If help is there, take it never to take advantage of it.
With the Pastors advice, we sought out help for ourselves and others. Remaining grateful, positive, giving and determined to succeed. There is so much to be grateful for! My children are healthy; we have a roof over our head and food in our bellies. I could not ask for anything else but, the strength and courage to succeed in order to provide for my family.
Ending 2012, I had the opportunity to attend New York Fashion Week SS 2013, the honor of being DC50's Fashion, Beauty and Lifestyle Expo Fashion Stylist working with NBC Fashion Star Nikki Poulos, Project Runway Winner Anya Ayoung Chee, and America's Next Top Model Jaslene Gonzalez.
Arriving into 2013, my fiancé made a Semi-Pro Football team, Ezlaryah (4) is attending Pre School, and Eciason (2) what can I say? He is always attached to my hip. As for myself, next month I am one of the lucky showcased Fashion Stylists at Crystal Couture. Immediately after, I will be attending New York Fashion Week AW 2013 to work several shows. With gratitude, faith and perseverance I believe we are well on our way!